YEARNING

Sam, you told me that it is dignified to die because of something that is worthwhile, but I do not agree.

You can ask Death for being fast, brief and painless, but you cannot ask if for dignity, because it lacks of that.

Perhaps are Muhammad, Gandhi or Martin Luther King remembered because they died, like any other living does? No. They are remembered because of what they did in their lives, because they fought for their goals and they reached them, leaving a very huge record in this world. And maybe those goals carried them to Death, but it was not to die what gave them the glory, was that they reached what they wanted to…You do not die with dignity, Sam, YOU LIVE WITH IT.

Moreover, we humans think that we are better than the other livings because our brain is much more developed than theirs, what gives us the chance to make weapons and kill them all…even kill ourselves. And I wonder…and?

Really, take a look at us, Sam: we are made of a very soft material that’s easy to break down; we need to sleep, to eat…we need so many things to keep on living. And we still think we are invincible, but that is not true at all.

Perhaps you think that the AIDS and cancer are stronger than us? Allegedly no, they aren’t. But nevertheless they can kill us…so maybe we are not as strong as we think, are we?...In the end, our lives cost less than the bullet that kills us.

So, knowing how weak we are, we must live everyday of our lives as it would be the last one while we have the chance. And if we don’t do it, we will regret the rest of our existence.

Nowadays, I’m sad, Sam. I feel that I am losing my entire life in studying and doing everything that is supposed to be right…and I cannot repair it.

I have to study to get a good job and to be happy…but what people forget and I don’t is that you are really happy when you are young. Is nature, because is when you are really healthy. And we humans dedicate the best years of our life, when we do can be happy, in stay in a chair, looking at the books instead of being face to face with Life.

I want to feel life, Sam. I need it as the air I breathe.

So I have two options:

First, leave it all behind and take the control of my life. Live as if nothing else would matter…that really, nothing else matters.

Second, still like this, but try to be free some moments of my life to take the strength I need to still studying. Taking Life not as something to live, as something to survive.

And, in fact, Sam, I know that I am going to take the second one, even though I know that I would be really happy taking the first one, because I am so afraid.

I feel I lose every day of my fucking life, and I can’t do anything because I am not brave enough to do it! But some day I will be fed up with everything and I will run far away from here, living it all behind…

Sam, between you and I, I do am yearning for that day to come.

THE MOVIE

I recommend people to watch the movie The Lord of the Rings, which is divided in three different parts because of how long is it. In fact, each part is more than three hours long.

This fantastic movie was shot in New Zealand, because of the landscapes it has and because it is the director’s country, who is Peter Jackson.

The plot of the movie, fellows, is as follows: a pair of men, an elf, a dwarf, a wizard and four hobbits have to destroy the most powerful ring in their world. It is because in it lives the worst beast there, Sauron, and by destroying the ring, they will kill him before he seizes the world.

For this movie, Jackson decided to take very good actors, but he also wanted them not to be very famous. The reason was that the director wanted people to believe the story the film tells and that the audience didn’t only see famous actors pretending. He took, for example, Viggo Mortensen, Liv Tyler or Ian McKellen.

Moreover, I would recommend to watch it in the language you used to speaking because The Lord of the Rings is an epic movie which is not easy to follow if you see it in a language that’s not the one you’re used to listening to.

To finish up, I would like to say that I do recommend this film because I felt in it the most truthful friendship I had ever seen and it taught me to fight for whatever I want to get in my life. And, because of these reasons, the more I watch it the more I love it.

Don’t worry, Sam. I am not going to give another amazing end, it would be so predictable. So they all were happy ever after...and all that crap.

WHAT AN END

Two days ago, three friends of mine and I went to visit Marta, another friend, after watching the scary movie REC 2, because she was ill and she couldn’t go out with us.

When we arrived we sat on the sofa, where we started to talk about the movie we had just seen and other scary ones. Suddenly, Marta said that one of the most frightening movies she had ever watched was The Exorcist, The Beginning.

Then I remembered that, in that movie, the actor who plays priest Merrin role was one that I really love because of the way he acts, but I couldn´t remember his name. But then, some things about his life came to my mind as he has seven sons, he´s 57 years old, he played main characters in movies like Good will Hunting, Pirates of the Caribbean Saga, Mamma Mia! or Angels and Demons and so on…everything but his name!

At the end, five minutes later or so, we moved our conversation to other issues and, suddenly, I shouted “I have spoted it! He’s Stellan Skarsgard!” Then, all my friends burst into laughs because of the way I said it and the silly smile I wore on my face!

And, then, Marta died. You don’t know why. Neither do I. I just know that this is my story and it’s going to finish the way I want to. And, to that question you fellows are wondering…yes, I AM MAD.

SOMEONE SHOULD READ THIS...

“My last summer holidays were the best ones I have ever had because of many things.

One of those was that two USA girls came to visit a friend of me, what give us the chance to show them the most interesting places of Valencia and, personally, I had the chance of learning more English, what helped me to improve my listening.

However, although this was a great experience, the best of the whole summer was August, because I had the chance to be with my friends and to visit each other´s towns.

The first week we went to my best friend’s one, where we could enjoy beach, iced strawberry and blackberry´s ice-cream. And the funniest thing was that we never get tan, but this time we did!

Later, we spent the whole second week in my own town. The best subjects we did were, first of all, visiting the Roman ruins that linger in my town. After that, we went to swim to the pool and the river, whose water is completely frozen! We also were through my town’s way of living, and we do enjoyed it.

The third one was my oldest friend village, which is very small and peaceful, with nothing to visit but itself. When we were there it was village festivities, so, during the day, we were at the swimming-pool, and during the night, we were dancing.

Last week I came back to my town for resting and spending time with my family.

To finish up, I would like to say that this was my best summer ever because I could be with my friends, my family and I also had time to do other things, like learning English or reading new books”

I have found this script I wrote a year ago or so, when my life wasn’t as destroyed as it is now.

When I was a teen, I thought that the only one thing that could make me happy was that any amazing event would happen to me, as having the chance to be someone in this world and to be forever remembered. And, of course, I was living waiting for my dream come true…I was sad. Meanwhile, I tried to save the others’ lives, and I almost died with them…but someone rescued me from all that crap.

They were my angels, who brought me to life although they didn’t know it. They taught me the things that make you happy are the littlest ones: just to wake up every morning, knowing that your family loves you and is there with you, your friends are waiting for you at school to laugh and cry with you, and that you will go to bed with a big smile, being conscientious that tomorrow will be the same, because you really love it.

I have to confess, Sam, I knew this was going to finish. But I didn’t want to accept it anyway. I needed that situation still the same to keep myself sane, so I forced myself to believe that that was going to be forever. Alas, it wasn’t.

The summer I redacted in the script was the best I have ever had, and the end of my ideal life.

When we started the course, we took over the assignment to slaughter the best thing we have ever done: to be friends. We got apart, ones from others, until we didn’t know who was who…and that was our doom. The arguments started and never finished…but now, we have decided to talk to conclude our relationship…What we built by love we let the words to destroy it…Oh, so grievous, Sam, so sad…

And the worst of this all is that I’m fine, it doesn’t hurt me…or it hurts too much that I can’t express it…In fact, I don’t know it. I feel it as it happened to another person but me…I’m numb now, and there’s nothing worse than that.

I know we have changed a lot, Sam, we all, and because of that this is not the same and we aren’t friends yet, and maybe we won’t be ever.

But I still love these memories they gave me through those years, my ideal life, my dream that was my reality… I will keep it all with a lot of fondness in the deepest of my heart, now that, alas, I am awake.

LATEST TRAVEL

Two years ago, three of my teachers, my classmates and I went to visit London. We were there just for four days and it was amazing, but also too short.

From it all, I remember that the first day in the morning we went to see the Big Ben, which is the bell inside very big clock situated in the Place of Westminster, and we had a London Eye ride because we wanted to see London as a whole. In the afternoon, we went to visit the Buckingham Palace, which is rather smart and big.

We spent the whole second day visiting the National Gallery, where you can find a lot of awesome things, like pictures, sculptures and so on. But, alas, we couldn´t see it all because is very big and we had not time to do it.

Later, the third day, we had the opportunity to travel to Windsor, which is a bit far from London, where we could visit the palace that the Queen of England has there.

And the last day, our teachers let us go to Regent Street, where all the shops linger and we could buy some stuff, Piccadilly Circus, where we knew some kind people, and Camden, which I found really awesome because I could buy a lot of that kind of strange things I like.

Hence, I do enjoyed London and I would like to go back, but for a week or so, because I had not enough time all that this amazing city hides inside and I want to indeed.

GLOBALIZATION

The type of media I use the most is the Internet, but I don’t do it very frequently.

One of the reasons why I search the information I need in the Internet is because there is further information than in any other types of media, as TV or newspapers. What I usually look for is a very specific information, about things like arts, literature or languages, which are very difficult to find in other kinds of media.

Another reason is that the information in the Internet is available whenever I need it, so I can search for it when I want to do it. Nevertheless, this does not happen with TV, which grants the information at specific hours, or with the newspapers, the ones I have to buy in the morning to know what happens in the world I live in.

But I also know that the Internet is full of lies, so I have to know something about what I’m going to search before doing it. And the worst part is that I have realized that the more I search the less things I find to be completely true.

Despite that, I still prefer the Internet for finding the information I need.

By the way, I wanted to add that the Internet is very connected with globalization, and that is something that makes people feel afraid, but, as far as I am concerned, that is a generalization.

It’s true the world seems to be dominated by big business, but the effects of this are exaggerated. I explain:

On the one hand, some people say globalization is unfair. Whereas people who live in rich countries have benefited from international trade, the natural resources of poorer countries have been devastated by multinationals that don’t re-invest their profits in the local economies. Moreover, traditional jobs have been lost without being replaced by new ones, so even the word ‘globalization’ has become a term of abuse for many people.

But, on the other hand, I think one of the key features of globalization, that is the Internet, has the power to improve the world. I think communication is the key to progress and for this reason I believe that the Internet can improve the lives of ordinary people. In fact, as I said at the beginning of the script, the Internet is one of the most democratic inventions of all time, although it was originally developed for business, because it allows us the chance to do with it whatever we want to.

So, to finish up, saying that is our power to let globalization be something fair or unfair, as everything in our lives.